Lidia finally moved out Saturday. It hit me harder than I thought it would. I cried off and on for most of the rest of the day.

I had a date with Mary Ann for dinner Saturday too and, on the whole, I think that this was helpful for me to get past the heavy emotionalism I was dealing with. I did break down and started talking trash about Lidia to her and now I feel very bad about this. It has definitely poisoned any type of goodwill that Mary Ann may have had about my relationship with Lidia. Now she's hyper-critical over any nice thing I mention that I may do for Lidia. I will not do that again.

The bad part of the situation is that Mary Ann was hinting heavily that she feels we are so right for each other and that she hopes we will get back together in the future, after my emotions for Lidia have run their course. Unfortunately, for her, I don't think this will ever happen but I don't want to shut her off and just tell her we don't have a chance together. I certainly don't reinforce those feelings she expresses but I don't shoot them down either. Not sure which is the best way to proceed here.

We then went to see "The Good Shepherd" at the movies on Sunday. This movie was very convoluted and almost plodding in it's story telling. It was nice to see a movie with someone where I didn't have to explain every little plot point and answer tiresome questions about it all the way through. Mary Ann kept going on how her ex never took her to the movies and how she missed a lot of good ones during her 15 month relationship.

What I didn't like was that she was critical that Lidia called me on Saturday but her ex called her Saturday too and again on Sunday! It's often that things are only wrong or bad when someone ELSE does them! It's human nature to be hypocritical.

So, I'm trying to be there for her too. She feels very strongly that her ex was completely wrong for her but she's pretty sure that he may try and get back into her life and that, for whatever reason, she may become intimate with him again. She realizes that if this were to happen they would probably start it up all over again. I know exactly what she's going through.