I was really missing Lidia again last night. I did it to myself though, I drank too much last night. I had 2 beers and then, instead of stopping there, I made 2 pretty strong rum and cokes. I fell asleep pretty early but then I awoke at around 2:30am. That's when I started feeling sad that Lidia wasn't sleeping next to me and truthfully I was pretty horny too. I miss having sex with her even if it wasn't very satisfying. I guess even bad sex is better than no sex. I am getting so tired of masturbating too! A trip to Vegas is starting to sound better and better.

One other aspect about feeling this way is that I know somethings I need to do to get past it. I am doing some of those things and maybe I'm expecting to much of myself too soon. I mean, it's only been a little more than 3 weeks since she moved out. But maybe, I could be doing more. I could volunteer or join a support group or some sort of club or something else. I don't know...

I'm thinking of what I should say to my "child" about this. As I see it there's 2 ways to go here. The first one I thought of was "You need to get out there and stop feeling so sorry for yourself. Just force yourself if you have to at first. After a while you'll be so busy living your life that you won't feel sad about breaking up. You may get to the point where you discover that it was the best thing you could have done. Also, there's plenty of fish in the sea. There's a ton of singles groups out there. That shows that there are a lot of people in your same situation."

The second thing I thought of to say would be... "Give yourself time to heal. Soon you'll feel that the time is right to get back out there. You can't rush through the process or else you may get stuck for longer than you'd like. It's okay to feel sad still. You will feel less sad as time goes by. Really!"

Maybe I think I need to tell myself a little of both. "Give yourself time to heal but get out there too. It'll help to talk socialize but with no expectations. Just meeting people can be fun too."