I am still feeling pretty bad about my break-up. Mary Ann contributed to this feeling a little by blowing me off for our date Saturday night. I must admit that I was feeling like cancelling myself but I also didn't want to just sit around the house moping around and feeling sad. At least I got a lot of house work done and I even did a decent workout too.

Sunday was a little worse. I did another workout and I even totally cleaned out the refrigerator along with some laundry. I went shopping and made the mistake of buying beer. I ended up drinking it all while watching football. At least it was spread out long enough so that I wasn't hung-over Monday morning. I really have to watch my alcohol intake, I don't think I'll buy any more for a while.

So what am I feeling now? I feel lonely and deserted. I do feel abandoned like I have no one to rely on. That's so silly though because I could always call my family or even Mary Ann or even Jill and cry on their shoulders. But I do feel this way and I even feel that Mary Ann and Jill aren't true friends because they both would like to get back together with me as a couple. So, I sort of hold back reaching out to them. Especially with Mary Ann since Jill lives back on Los Angeles.