I just realized something a little while ago.

I treat friends better than I treat my girlfriend! How messed up is that?

I was talking to Mary Ann earlier today and I was reneging on my agreement to sell her my elliptical trainer. I was very clear on why I decided not sell it after all. Basically, I didn't want to have to spend more on a new machine.

So, while we were messaging back and forth, I was thinking that if we were discussing why she wants a an exercise machine, I would be as gentle as possible to allude that she has some weight to lose. But, if she were my girlfriend I might just blurt out at her, "You better get something soon because you're getting too fat!"

I know how to say things in a gentle, positive manner but why don't I do it to the person who means the most to me.?? The person whose feelings I should care about as much as I do my own? Looks like there's some room for growth here. Maybe, I don't care for my girlfriends as much as I think I should? (If so, that's a huge sign that I may be with the wrong person.)