I took a step forward in class last night. One of my classmates is a nice woman named Terese. We were talking about our issues for a T/A contract and her issues was pretty sad. She said, "I am unlovable, hence I am alone." She talked about how lonely she was and that although she kept herself busy she didn't have anyone she could call to go out to dinner with.

I then immediately spoke up and said "You could call me!" She didn't respond because she was still talking but the teacher stopped her and told her what a nice thing Pete was doing. She was sort of taken aback. She said that she didn't respond because she thought I was being sarcastic. The teacher kept telling her that she was closing herself off to acceptance. I told her I was serious and that I didn't mean any sarcasm at all.

I felt bad for her because the teacher kept after her about accepting my offer and that she needs be open to such offers and opportunities. She said that she felt it a bit inappropriate to discuss something like this in class but if I talk to her outside of class that she would consider having dinner with me. I did talk to her after class and we exchanged email addresses. I could have gotten her cell phone number but I felt that that would be a little too personal too soon.

We stayed after class and talk with the teacher more and I walked with her out to the parking lot and we talked a bit going to dinner. She seems like a very nice person and I told her that I wasn't looking for a girlfriend but a friend in general. We agreed to go out next Wednesday. I realized later that that's Valentine's day. That seems a bit ironic. I'll email her today to see if she meant this Wednesday or the next Wednesday.

Now, for the step back. I was really missing Lidia this morning. I am really missing the physical closeness of living together. I really miss the easy hugging and the cuddling in bed. I am also still missing the sexual intimacy a lot too. I am also missing the way she would make me breakfast when I worked from home on Fridays. Damn, I am feeling again that I may have made a mistake in breaking up with her. Why is it so hard to let her go? I know it's only been 4 weeks since she moved out but I'm still so sad...