From the be careful what you wish for files. I had a strange experience happen this pas Saturday. I went to a class called "On-line Dating 101." I wasn't sure what I would learn since I've joined a couple on-line sites in the past.

This one was pretty basic and I really didn't gain much of value. At the end of class the teacher told us about some books we may want to read. One of the books she suggested was called "The Law of Attraction."

The book is very new agey and it talks about how you can get what you want by sort of asking for it. You're supposed to put your intentions out there into the ether and let a higher reality/conciuosness bring the things you want right to you.

Now of course, I don't believe in this sort of thing at all but I was kidding around and I started thinking to myself "I want Lidia back" a few times while I was sitting in class. So what happens when I get home after my date with Elaine? I had an email from Lidia in my inbox. It's so ironic, I haven't had any contact with her in over a month and I just had a really nice date.

She was asking if I kept copies of files that I gave her when I removed her account from my PC. It seems one disk I gave her was blank. Hmmm. I asked her to only contact me if it was an emergency and this didn't quite rise to that level but I'm weak so I wrote her back that no, I didn't keep copies but that I could copy the one good disk she still has and make as many as she wanted.

Truthfully, I'm not sure exactly what's going on in my mind. I do want to see her again even though I know that's not a good idea. I left it up to her though, I told her she could mail the disk to me and I would send back the copies. I have no idea what I'm trying to accomplish here except a little part of me does want to get back together.

That would be very selfish of me I think. I mean it would be interesting to go back and date like we should have in the first place but I don't see how that's even remotely possible. Way too much has gone on between us besides us living together.

But then here I am, watching married couples on Dr. Phil and my relationship with Lidia seems like Nirvana in comparison. I think at the end there even Lidia was getting bored with our relationship. Our last nights out before we actually split were spent with long moments of silence and we almost always can talk to each other. She was extremely passive-aggressive too.

She's probably as overwhelmed with feeling like me and wants things back to the way they were before so she can stop feeling so bad. That's not a good reason to get back together. I hope I can still do the right thing.