fuck, Fuck FUCK! Why do I do this to myself. I stupidly answered Lidia's email and I agreed to meet her to get the fucking CD that she wants copies of. So I'm already thinking ahead to what's going to happen when we meet... and what happens now? She texts me that this weekend isn't good for her and we'll have to do it some other time.

What the fuck. I fucking asked for it! Of course I'm thinking she's got a date or dates planned. Of course that's perfectly fine. We are no longer together and she can see whoever she wants. Even though I have absolutely no evidence one way or the other. And here I was thinking she was going to try and get me back.

I'm such a dick when it comes to her! When will I be able to let her go???