I had a very nice time with my family in L.A. this past weekend. I didn't drink any alcohol even though most everyone around me was drinking. We had a great time playing games at Rebecca's house. That seems to be place to hang out. I wonder if Noel would have had fun playing with us?

I took her to the baby shower with me on Saturday. We spent a lot of time talking about our respective situations. The first thing I noticed was man, did she look good. She's lost a lot of weight and she's almost to the point of being too skinny but it's funny that she still has a little tummy. The shitty part is that her boyfriend would tease her about it. He even tried talking her to get it removed by liposuction. He even took her to a Dr for an evaluation. Damn, that's pretty harsh. I can image how harmful it is to her body image, not to mention her self-esteem. It made me feel bad because I did some of the same things to Lidia whenever I felt especially frustrated. When I thought I was ready to break it off, I would practically demolish her self-esteem. I was way too cruel. So there's a part of me that wants to make it up to her by getting back together.

Anyway, I spent much of the evening talking to Noel. She was really having troubles with her boyfriend of 8 months. The way she talked about him and the way she described his behaviors made me think that maybe he's bi-polar. She said that he would probably never consent to therapy. Noel surprised me when she told me that she was going to go see a therapist in 2 weeks. Her therapist is the head of some psych department at UCLA, or was it USC? I forgot. I hope she can help Noel with her lack of confidence.

Okay so here's the tricky part. On the way back home, (Oh yeah I had to take her home before it got dark because she doesn't like to drive at night. :-/) I straight out asked her if they've slept together yet and she said "no." Damn, it's been 8 months and she still has been intimate with him. No wonder he's acting strange. She's even more rigid in her principles than I am! I am very attracted to her but I think I would be crazy to get involved with someone who's so out of touch with her own sexuality. Talk about uptight!