I really feel like I'm back in my twenties and I just broke up with Erin all over again. Lidia reminded me a lot of Erin and when I finally broke up with Erin, I ended up stalking her and asking her to come back to me.

We would break up and get back together much like have been with Lidia. I remember it finally ended completely when Erin started going out with a co-worker named Bob. I once again asked her to get back together and she told me no! She ended up marrying him and I heard that they started a family not long afterward.

This is surprising to me as I'm some 20 years older now but it seems not much wiser. I still don't know what to do to get past all these feelings. I know time helps but it just seems to take forever. I know I'm doing all the right things but it just doesn't seem to help much.