We finished our Transactional Analysis class last night. I definitely enjoyed many aspects of learning T/A but I was struck once again at how like a horoscope the "scripts" were. Not in that they were accurate representations of human personalities but how you have to pick and choose the characteristics to emphasize in order to categorize someone into one of only 5 major script types.

One of the useful things I learned in class was how risk averse I am. I've known that for along time but it was painfully obvious to a trained professional, yet again. Dr. Nichol gave me a challenge at the end of class to take more "OK" risks. OK risks are risks that my adult ego approves of and are relatively safe. I would call them "calculated risks" myself.

He also asked me to think of my scariest risk and I could think of 2 right off the bat.

1. To not get into any serious relationship for a significant length of time.
-Honestly, I would like to see what happens with Elaine first. I really like her.
-Just need to take it slow and let things develop that way.

2. To not go back to Lidia!
-This is not going to happen anyway. The longer we're apart the less likely we'll reconcile.
-I AM taking a risk in breaking up with her.

I didn't interact much with Therese at all. I was a bit upset that in class she talks like she's all alone with no friends and no romantic prospects but that was completely opposite what she said during our dinner a month ago. Once again she refrained from talking about her personal issues that drove her to take this class in the first place. I got the feeling that she's too worried about her reputation since she seems to have a very large social circle. I actually feel a little sorry for her. She's keeping a lot of her pain trapped inside. I may email her and ask her to dinner one more time just to see how things go. I don't know yet but I'm leaning toward No.

So, now, I'm thinking a lot about Elaine. She's dropped a few hints that she's attracted to me and I don't want to go too fast with her but yet I don't want her to think I'm not attracted to her. I like her a lot but I am seriously stopping myself from calling her more often. I think it may make her more interested though. Kind of like playing hard to get but for me I'm really trying to stay busy anyway and I want to nurture my friendship with Mary Ann and keep that strictly platonic.

I was thinking of calling her tonight but I will be better off waiting until I get back in on Sunday. I can talk to her about out dinner and movie date this Wednesday. I am so looking forward to that date. I am planning on kissing her a bit more than our last date. I hope she enjoys it too.