I met Mary Ann for sushi after work today. I wasn't planning on having any alcohol but I've noticed that I tend to drink more around her. I'm going to have think about why that is. I know for sure that she encourages me to drink. I think she may do it to try and lower my inhibitions about us getting back together. That isn't going to happen.

In fact as we were finishing up I told her that even though we had had some great sex when we were a couple that I really value her as a close friend. I told her that I need a friend like her way more than I needed a girlfriend. I told her I loved her as a friend.

She started crying a little. She said that she felt the same way but that she was very emotional about us. I got the feeling that she was sad that we wouldn't be getting back together. It made me a little sad too.