Shit something went wrong with Elaine. I sent her an email Wednesday and no reply, then I called her phone and left a message asking her out. She hadn't replied to that either. So, I remembered today is her birthday and I called...

New update, she just called back and we're on for tomorrow. I was concerned that she was going to stop seeing me already. I may have put her off by revealing too much of my fucked up childhood on our last evening out.

As usual our phone conversations were a bit awkward for me so I kept it brief. Now I need to dial my expectations down again as not hearing anything from her for the last couple of days was a little painful. I wish I had met her after I got over Lidia. I'm sure I'm sending out this funky vibe. I think it's what makes phone calls so awkward for me.

Now, we're going out again tomorrow. No expectations, no worrying about the future. Just go out and take it as it comes. Trying to think of a good place to go. Not too expensive and not too cheap either. Hmmm, that's a tough one with her. She says she's pretty low maintenance except for her eating requirements. No beef or pork. My two favorite food groups!

Mary Ann's coming over tonight. We're supposed to watch movies and have comfort food. I am very grateful for her friendship. If it wasn't for her, this break up would be much, much harder to get through. Luckily, she broke up with her b/f too otherwise she wouldn't have much time to hang out with me.

In other news. I got pretty drunk chatting with Carmen last night. I felt sad after the singles happy hour I went too. I must be way too picky but there's no one I've yet met who I'd like to date. I think I should just go to these things with a goal of meeting new people as friends rather than finding my next g/f.