I went to a Coyotes hockey game last night. I went with Ward and Chris, his girlfriend Donna and Donna's daughter Madison. We met Sheri and Bill at the The Yard House. I really like the Yard House because they have a tremendous selection of beers on tap. I paid cash for a couple of beers and when we sat down for dinner I didn't have much money.

I guess I was a bit drunk so instead of finding the nearest ATM I just offered to treat the whole table to dinner. It wasn't that expensive since some of the people only had soup or just a salad but it was sort of foolish of me to do that. I'm not sure if I was trying to buy their friendship, which is very silly since we're already friends, for the most part. I think it was partially that I didn't have enough cash on me and felt embarrassed to have to ask for some help. Either way it would be better to admit when I need help.

On the way home I did a much more stupid thing. I drove by Lidia's new place. She had sent me an email complaining about taking the Rav4 back to the shop because she was rear-ended again. I was curious to see how much damage there was. It was pretty late, around 11PM so I figured she would be asleep by then. It took a few minutes to figure out how to find it but when I finally drove by I didn't see her Rav4 anywhere.

I immediately started torturing myself and imagined that she was spending the night at a boyfriends house. I have no evidence where she might have been. She could have been staying with a friend, like Marty. She said, in the email, that her landlord is a crazy bitch and that she's thinking of moving out in 2 months, so maybe she's staying with a friend who she's moving out with.

But of course I would imagine that she's already seeing some new guy and that she's also spending a lot of time with him. That's how she acts in a relationship. I am feeling sad about it but not as much as I would have just a few weeks ago. This may be the sort of ending I need to let her go and move on.