Mary Ann is finally realizing that we aren't going to be boyfriend and girlfriend again. Her friendship has really helped me get through my break up. I was and still am pretty vulnerable and if she couldn't convince me to get back with her by now, it just isn't going to happen.

I called Elaine yesterday to set up our next date. She was going to dinner with her daughter so she couldn't talk but she asked if she could call me right after. I was surprised at how nice that simple comment made me feel.

The last couple of times I've called she was sort of brief over the phone and I really had no idea how much she care about me. I do remember how she was so thankful for the birthday dinner I took her to and how nice out brief kissing was. Now I feel like we're both getting a bit more serious about this.

I'm not sure if that's a good thing at this point because I do have that singles tour coming up at the end of March. If I'm already getting serious with Elaine, I will probably hold myself back from getting close to any women on the trip.

I haven't been calling her daily since I want to take this slow and see how we feel about each other after getting to know each other first. My main pattern is that once I am in a relationship I stay with it too long even after I realize that it isn't going to work. So, even if we become serious and exclusive that doesn't mean that we're right for each other. I already see some potential incompatibility issues. Such as she's pretty religious and I'm not. And, of course, I have no clue as to how she's like in the bedroom.

She did say that she likes to date a long time before even thinking about marriage or anything like that. That works for me. She explained during dinner that she was engaged up until last September but she didn't like the way the guy kept grudges, especially when her kids did something negative. He would bring it up again and again. That's behavior I've seen in myself and I'll have to watch myself to keep from doing that.