I didn't get much sleep last night as I was thinking about Lidia again. I think I may need to list out all the reasons why I felt that our relationship wasn't working. I could start all the way back at the beginning when we first started going out and all the red flags I ignored back then. It may help me put some more finality to this whole situation. I hope.

I got a hold of Elaine last night and we decided to go to a regular dinner and movie date rather than go to Farrelli's Cinema Supper club. They changed their schedule and the movie we would see would be "Blood Diamond."

First off, I've seen it already and second, Elaine doesn't enjoy violent movies. She said she was grateful that I changed plans when I found out what movie was playing. I told her I really was listening when she said how she doesn't like to see violent movies. Blood Diamond is pretty damn violent too. She said that those kinds of movies we could watch on DVD. It sounded like we would have some movie nights at home in the future. I liked the sound of that.

Now we're planning on going to the White Chocolate grill for dinner and then heading over to Harkins to see "Music and Lyrics." It's a rather formulaic romantic comedy so we should have some opportunity to make out. I hope. I'm still not sure what she feels for me at this point but I'm cool with that for now.

For our next date I already want to take her to see this play at the Herberger. It's about 2 maids struggling at low wage jobs while searching for happiness. It got good reviews. It's a dark comedy that I think she'll enjoy.

I think she could use some comedy because she told me her daughters wedding has been called off. It seems her daughter and fiance have separated. She's quite sad over that as she said that she really liked the guy. To me it was sort of a bit more validation for me because Lidia wanted very much to get married but there's no way I could have gone through with it with her. I figure we would have been divorced within a year or two. I mentioned to Elaine that it was far better to find out before the marriage that it won't work than years later in divorce court.

Her other concern was that a lot of her family members had already booked flights to attend the wedding and they were still coming to town. She said that the wedding was originally set for April 7th. I will definitely tell her this Wednesday about my up coming trip to New Zealand. I will be out of town that week and I am going to offer her a key to my place in case she needs some extra room. I just have to be sure and hide anything I don't want her to discover.... like my porn.