Now, thinking about all her emails since we broke up. I can see that she had cheated on me even before we broke up. That lie she told about getting a massage was probably the only time I caught her. She must have been seeing him since November. That's when she lied about the massage.

I know she must have been seeing him because she emailed me in February that she was going to move out of the room she was renting. She told me a bullshit story about how her land-lady expected her to dog sit and to live somewhere else when her son came to visit.

Then in early April she called to tell me she was picking up her stuff later in the month because she was going to move in with her co-worker Shauna. Holy crap. If she had started seeing Will in February then they decided to move in together after only 2 months of dating.

I am totally shocked at how little I really knew her. She had told me how badly her first two husbands had treated her and I thought that she wouldn't do to me what they did to her, CHEAT! I was so wrong, I see that now.

OK, the first two times with Eric and Scott were not technically cheating since we were on a break and I hope she waited till we were separated to screw Will. How scared of being alone she must be. She can't even wait a day to jump right into another relationship and she uses sex to get the guy interested in her. That's how it was with me!

I remember our second date when I met her at her place to pick her up. She was still getting ready so I was inside waiting. I heard her get a phone call and it was her most recent ex. She was still breaking it off with him even as we had already gone out.

I didn't even like her all that much back then but I believed what she said! Man, I was so gullible!