I'm waiting for Marty to come by and take the last of Lidia's stuff. I am feeling pretty sad right now but that's super normal, I think. I wish I could really stay angry at her for the emotional shit that she put me through. It would help me to get past her and this whole situation.

But I can't stay angry. I keep thinking that maybe I'm wrong about a lot of what I was suspicious about but then I think back to all the clues and evidence and it just seems so obvious that she was at least, doing something against our relationship the last few months we were together.

And come on, she went out with Will over New Year's. That was a DATE! Then I notice, she took all the pictures of us together down. The one of her alone was gone. Something happened between the two of them in her bedroom! I wish I could talk to Marty and find out what he knows.

Once again I notice that just as I'm starting to feel good again and ready to just live my life. She does something to contact me and I get myself all worked up over her again!

I definitely do it to myself too. How can I stop it? Well now that there's no reason for her to contact me I can just let time run it's course. My feelings were fading and I just need to be patient and let her go.