I should have known it. I just got a reply from Lidia and she seems so reasonable and even put upon that I'm angry at her. It makes me feel guilty about all the hostility I displayed in my message to her and even in my private blog.

I just need to remind myself that she did lie to me. She had gone to lunch when I was in Vegas and she told me that she had gone with Marty but she conveniently neglected to mention that her friend Wally was there too.

I confronted her about it and she said something like, "Do I have to tell you everyone I meet for lunch?" I told her no but if I ask her directly who she went to lunch with it's a lie to not tell me who she went with. I asked her if it was me who had gone to lunch and she found out that it was with a female friend that she didn't know, how would she feel about it. She then, finally, admitted that it would bother her but she never admitted that she had done something wrong and she never said she was sorry!

There were other situations like that not even considering the crap she did when we broke up early in 2006. I can understand that she did what she did because she thought we were really breaking up but it's what she did right after that hurt me so much. It's the whole shit with Scott and the bullshit she pulled to make me jealous. There's really no other good explanation other than she wanted to make me jealous. I mean why mention to me that she was getting a yeast infection and could it have been caused by latex?! Fuck That!

Or even now. Why keep contacting me when she's already dating and not mention it? Why keep hinting that she's so busy working that she doesn't have time to do much else, like date someone? Why do I let myself get so worked up over this? It's OVER!